Illness comes from mouth? *病从口入*

today early morning heard there's a news bout the issue Taiwan food scandal

The government has imposed a ban on selling foods and medicines containing in
excess of trace amounts of industrial plasticizer DEHP.

Right Click & Open in New Tab for more bout the 'Issue' if you interest with

'辛'拉面 Xin Lamian *my favourite instant noodle*, OFF sell!!
can't believe it also...contains excessive plasticizers.... *eww.. scary..*

here's the picture of the instant noodle that i mention..

me.. just suffered from Food Poison yesterday whole day...
everything i ate, i will just vomit...
even a candy, i unable to drink water....
i just keep spinning...
vomit...
spinning...
and... vomit... what i remember...that's all...

i feel nausea when i see or smell any food.. even those in TV =-=
i think.. mostly will thought that i vomit of pregnancy.. uhhhhhh ><
whatever~ i just.. wanna vomit.. lolx

i have to *should be force to* take medicine continuously until i finish them... T-T
*seriously... i hate medicine~~ boh bian lo~~*
and doctor claimed that i have to stop eating those 'dirty' foods..
like mamak stall food.. =.=

god bless i will recover as fast as it could be..
i wanna rush my homeworks eh..
have to rest now.. tada~~

无所谓

为什么一架DSLR能搞出那么多事情。。有那么多人妒忌。。有那么多人不爽
那时老师说需要用到的时候。。我也觉得很难开口啊。。
是阿妈帮我开口我才有勇气说出口的。。
不然我早就没得读下去了。。
是我和阿妈骗阿爸。。说先向契妈借着先的。。（因为阿妈知道他不可能一下拿出那么的钱）
再加上那时我真的逼不得以。。我要用来做我的功课的。。你们就不能明白吗？？？？？
为什么要那么对我。。
我也很辛苦的日夜。帮阿爸载货，拿货。。还搞到没精神然后还撞车。。
才有的。。你们就不能体谅一下吗？？？
我是你们的妹妹啊。。不能替我庆幸吗？为我高兴吗。。？

当初你pmr考到六科A你可以得到一架钢琴。。
我比你少一颗A..我得到的是三十块。。
但是我没考虑地的收下。。
当契妈问起我得到的奖励才讲我为什么那么笨。。应该要求更多奖赏。。
但我什么也不求。。

那我是不是该说你？说你命那么好？。。是不是？？？

那时家里发生那么多事。。你们都没在家。。
都是我和妹妹扛了下来。。
我差不多天天都发恶梦。。。。起来好想哭。。觉得好累。。

我还怀疑自己有忧郁症。。。。
有一段时间我还要控制自己。。不去想歪。。不去自杀。。
那一段时间。。我躲在冲凉房哭。。 每天都哭得眼睛很肿很痛地去学校。。
在学校有时也会控制不住。。梗咽。。
那时我觉得自己很无力。。我保护不到妈妈。。。我没用
是我让妈妈受那么多委屈。。
我就连喊叫。。也能喊到喉咙出血。。

现在还要天天面对伤害我妈妈的爸爸。。
我真的。。很累。。很烦。。
我不能预测他几时会发狂。。
他几时会喝酒回来。。
有什么打算。。有没有在外头乱说话。。
三不五时。。说起妈妈的不是。。
我真的很想把我耳朵给弄聋了。。
妈妈付出那么多。。却换来。。两个女儿的不谅解和憎恨。。

最近。。我发现。。每次。。睡醒来。。心跳都会跳得很快。。。很奇怪。。
算了。。
要拿我的命就快点。。
反正。。我也活得不耐烦了 。。。
我不懂得去处理那些。。我不知怎么处理的。。人际关系。。
我真的。。。。。。。很失望。。
很累。。很累。。。。
身体很累。。
头脑很累。。
心灵很累。。
灵魂也很累。。

*带我走。。好吗？

Design 的日子

Design...是

有灵感就开心死； 没灵感就伤心死！

Design...的日子是。。
在鬼门关徘徊。。

为什么？
因为。。。
Design搞得我们。。

死后复活，复活后又死。。。
死了再复活，复活又再死。。
来来回回。。去去返返。。
到头来。。是死还是活着。。
自己都不搞清楚。。。

所以。。
现在。。
我也不懂自己在说些什么。。
哈哈

*纯粹没什么point的发泄文章，别见怪><*

根草

世上只有妈妈好。。。
有妈的孩子像个宝。。。

没妈的孩子像根草。。。 看来我就是草了。。。

一直抱着希望你会回来。。
看着你一件一件把东西搬走。。
听你说，你找到工作。。就来要开工。。
我说不出恭喜你的话。。。因为。。我不想恭喜我自己没有了你。。。

有时候。。觉得无所谓。。
有时候。。觉得自己很可怜。。

我是不是该活得像个大人。。不需要妈妈了吗？
哎。。

oh.. Christmas

Christmas?

aww..

snowing? nope...

playing? nope...

joying?... nope...

celebrating? nope...

arg~

Christmas is just a normal celebration day... which doesn't have any grand celebration happen in my life yet...

I can't find any special with it...

It's just a normal Saturday... As usual.. I just stayed at home lolx

Anyways...

happy X'mas.. guys

have a great moment with your beloved family members, friends or your 'another part' =D

key sia0

think of you..

my tears totally outta control...outta control...outta control... outta control...

I will never find out the reason...

It doesn't make sense at all...
because I'm very clear that I don't like u anymore... anymore...? no more~!
don't like
don't like

and your figure in my mind fading away...fading away...fading away...fading away...

let's say.. less than 10%!

hm.. what's wrong with me?

=-= 根本没什么睡到。。

An ice house melt still can rebuilt but not a family when it was destroyed;

A promise can be easily break but not a relationship;

A wound can be recover in a short period but not a scar leave at people's heart;

An overdue speaks not only hurt people's heart but yourself also.

So:

think twice before you speak...
think twice before you action...
because there's no more backtrack..
you could never turning back to past anymore
it was just done once the affair was take place
there's no such REDO in your life path

Look at your past history to learn lessons but not to repeat the same history[bad]
&
apply on others people even yourself;

that's just a kind of failure to being a human and being yourself

Remember,
you're a human being with brain*

爱需要勇气

相信我。。。 绝对不要让爱有任何的遗憾。。。
那遗憾。。是一辈子的。。。
爱。。 有时总少了些 勇气。。
胆怯。。 总坏了事情。。。
勇气使劲后， 就算是种失败。。。
但起码。。你对得起自己。。。
没有任何的懊悔。。
也不会。。。最后，你说。。你后悔了。。
我们擦身而过了3次。。
那感觉，依然深刻，依然清晰，依旧地无缘

Greed?
sometimes greed behavior makes good thing...
i greed so i can perform better...
makes me move forward...
i greed so i can do my best...
i greed for better and much better result...
i greed for my future...

i always afraid that i can't achieve my expectation...
sometimes i feel i'm so stress with that thought that attitude...

that
in fact...
makes me feel so loss.... so tiring... annoying...
sometimes,,, that concept is killing me and destroying me... and my life